救我!!

没有了，已经没有人可以给我诉苦了....
痛，心真的很痛...
以泪洗脸的次数我不想再数了...
有谁愿意听我说废话呢...
好无助啊!!!!

what CAN i do?

人，长大了...
有些事是时候改变了，
不能在一段时间停留太久，
因为少许的不同就会很容易察觉出来....

its time to become mature,
time to grow up..
things that we want is different..
v r not in the same direction amymore so thinking also different..
like he say or she say..
my temper really very bad...
i really don wan to admit cos i don agree with wat she say..
but who knows,
wat she say is rite, all rite...
change?
then it wont be "me" anymore...
will i become better o worst?
i ll try, give it a try...but its not easy...
i dunno the suggestion work anot, n i dunno i can bare the consequence anot,
but that is last option,
maybe,
thats the end...
ending of the story is not what i want n wat i expect...
but things have to move on...
face it ba!!!




eli...time to grow up n move on....................keep walkin til the end...
i believe there will b turning o even another junction juz right the corner of the end..
miracle will happen!!



WILL HAPPEN N PLEASE LET IT HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~

~breath~ i need air!!

开心？
我已不清楚它的定义了...
好想回到从前啊!!!!!
但，
以前我有开心吗？
好像没有也...
什么是真正的开心？
开心到流泪的感觉是怎样的？
自由自在的味道香吗？
这，
我全都不知道....
我知道什么？
烦恼，一大堆的问题，
他们已成为我的知己了，
每天每小时每分钟每秒都不放过，
不眠不休，
陪在我身边，
你看，
这样的朋友难寻也，
我终于明白为什么我是凡人了，
因，
我是烦人。







放过我吧！很难呼吸啊啊！~~~

我和他

really miss him alot..
from both blur blur..
freshly graduate from high school..
all the way til today..
many things happen between us..
happy n sad moments..

4 years....
we had walk through it bravely n without regret..


i m sorry..
sorry that i had hurt him for few times..
sorry that i din care about his feelings for some stupid reason..
sorry that i did not notice i m so in love with him..

till now,
i realize,
how wrong i m in the past,

unconsciously,
he become part of my life already,
get used to have him around me,
that kind of feeling really cant describe in words..


我的心在挣扎, 好乱, 这又不对那又不对..
好想见他, 好想告诉他我很想念他，
我的理智拉了我一把，（他在忙，别烦他吧）
心里有好多话想对他说,
可是，
面对他时，
他那双让我迷失了自己的眼睛让我暂时抛开了一切...
那感觉，
熟悉的来又带点陌生的味道
让我措手不及.

和他的分离，
那种不舍得心情又在猛敲我心房的门了..
我就好像迷路的小羊，
在灰暗的草地上徘徊，
想哭又不敢哭。

我不知这种心情会为持多久,
又会有谁能够把我拉回现实，
我只知道，
逃避是唯一我想要的出路，

好怕，
怕未来的来临，
不想感情因时间而变质...

不敢想，也不要想
我用尽办法来麻醉自己，
可惜，
我做不到，
我失败了，
只因，
我爱他....
很爱他.....