我和他

really miss him alot..
from both blur blur..
freshly graduate from high school..
all the way til today..
many things happen between us..
happy n sad moments..

4 years....
we had walk through it bravely n without regret..


i m sorry..
sorry that i had hurt him for few times..
sorry that i din care about his feelings for some stupid reason..
sorry that i did not notice i m so in love with him..

till now,
i realize,
how wrong i m in the past,

unconsciously,
he become part of my life already,
get used to have him around me,
that kind of feeling really cant describe in words..


我的心在挣扎, 好乱, 这又不对那又不对..
好想见他, 好想告诉他我很想念他，
我的理智拉了我一把，（他在忙，别烦他吧）
心里有好多话想对他说,
可是，
面对他时，
他那双让我迷失了自己的眼睛让我暂时抛开了一切...
那感觉，
熟悉的来又带点陌生的味道
让我措手不及.

和他的分离，
那种不舍得心情又在猛敲我心房的门了..
我就好像迷路的小羊，
在灰暗的草地上徘徊，
想哭又不敢哭。

我不知这种心情会为持多久,
又会有谁能够把我拉回现实，
我只知道，
逃避是唯一我想要的出路，

好怕，
怕未来的来临，
不想感情因时间而变质...

不敢想，也不要想
我用尽办法来麻醉自己，
可惜，
我做不到，
我失败了，
只因，
我爱他....
很爱他.....