ｉ ｎｅｖｅｒ ｗａｎｎａ ｂ ｇｏｏｄ ａｇａｉｎ

没了
什么都没了
心碎了
为什么我会那么笨
这世上除了我之外
再也没有人比我那么笨了
因我的笨，
i lost my new phone,
d phone tat my hubby buy for me as my 21st present,
d most precious present tat i ever get from my hubby
i wasted all my hubby de money
his sincerity,
and his heart..
he use all his savings,
his savings which work very hard to get de
in not more than 10 days,
gone,
gone for nothing
gone because of my carelessness
which cause by my stupidity and brainless me
how dare me....
wat a useless person in the universe...
hopeless and helpless
why,
why
and WHY
muz be me...
wat hav i done to u..
y hav to treat me lik tis...
tis is not wat i expect...
u ll payback 1 day..
for treatin me lik tis..
if i ever saw u again..
u ll b far more sad from wat i hav gone thru..
i swear...
i ll never let u hav a good life after all
cos u did not deserve...
u　ＤＩＤ　ＮＯＴ　ＤＥＳＥＲＶＥ

累了

谁说学院生活是享受的？
好累，好累，
没办法形容那无形的压力，
请把我压扁吧，
我不想再继续走了,
一个人走，好孤单，好寂寞，
好多东西都变了，
倾诉的对象也少了
有谁可以教我怎样走下去呢？
休息不是为了走更远的路吗？
我连休息的时间都没有
那要怎么走呢？


很感谢我一班超级可爱的朋友
因为他们，
我的人生少了一件遗憾的事，
没有他们，
我的这一世唯一21岁的生日就不会那么完美了，
我真的很意外，
原来这世上除了我的男友之外，
还有一班非常关心我的朋友，
爱你们哦！


很不明白，
家人不是应该互相支持的meh？？
在我最软弱的时候
你在哪里？
为什么还要多踩几脚，多插几针，
让我的心痛上加痛，
我的容忍就快到极限了，

我，
会因为那份礼物的面上，
而，
不敢再乱对你发脾气吗，
我怕，我担心，
我会因为那样而把自己的感情压制，
我不惯别人送我那么贵重的礼物，
因我不会回礼，更怕自己象欠了他一样，
感觉不好受，不习惯，
我只要你注重我多一点，疼我就好了，
别再那么傻了
好吗？

救我!!

没有了，已经没有人可以给我诉苦了....
痛，心真的很痛...
以泪洗脸的次数我不想再数了...
有谁愿意听我说废话呢...
好无助啊!!!!

what CAN i do?

人，长大了...
有些事是时候改变了，
不能在一段时间停留太久，
因为少许的不同就会很容易察觉出来....

its time to become mature,
time to grow up..
things that we want is different..
v r not in the same direction amymore so thinking also different..
like he say or she say..
my temper really very bad...
i really don wan to admit cos i don agree with wat she say..
but who knows,
wat she say is rite, all rite...
change?
then it wont be "me" anymore...
will i become better o worst?
i ll try, give it a try...but its not easy...
i dunno the suggestion work anot, n i dunno i can bare the consequence anot,
but that is last option,
maybe,
thats the end...
ending of the story is not what i want n wat i expect...
but things have to move on...
face it ba!!!




eli...time to grow up n move on....................keep walkin til the end...
i believe there will b turning o even another junction juz right the corner of the end..
miracle will happen!!



WILL HAPPEN N PLEASE LET IT HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~

~breath~ i need air!!

开心？
我已不清楚它的定义了...
好想回到从前啊!!!!!
但，
以前我有开心吗？
好像没有也...
什么是真正的开心？
开心到流泪的感觉是怎样的？
自由自在的味道香吗？
这，
我全都不知道....
我知道什么？
烦恼，一大堆的问题，
他们已成为我的知己了，
每天每小时每分钟每秒都不放过，
不眠不休，
陪在我身边，
你看，
这样的朋友难寻也，
我终于明白为什么我是凡人了，
因，
我是烦人。







放过我吧！很难呼吸啊啊！~~~

我和他

really miss him alot..
from both blur blur..
freshly graduate from high school..
all the way til today..
many things happen between us..
happy n sad moments..

4 years....
we had walk through it bravely n without regret..


i m sorry..
sorry that i had hurt him for few times..
sorry that i din care about his feelings for some stupid reason..
sorry that i did not notice i m so in love with him..

till now,
i realize,
how wrong i m in the past,

unconsciously,
he become part of my life already,
get used to have him around me,
that kind of feeling really cant describe in words..


我的心在挣扎, 好乱, 这又不对那又不对..
好想见他, 好想告诉他我很想念他，
我的理智拉了我一把，（他在忙，别烦他吧）
心里有好多话想对他说,
可是，
面对他时，
他那双让我迷失了自己的眼睛让我暂时抛开了一切...
那感觉，
熟悉的来又带点陌生的味道
让我措手不及.

和他的分离，
那种不舍得心情又在猛敲我心房的门了..
我就好像迷路的小羊，
在灰暗的草地上徘徊，
想哭又不敢哭。

我不知这种心情会为持多久,
又会有谁能够把我拉回现实，
我只知道，
逃避是唯一我想要的出路，

好怕，
怕未来的来临，
不想感情因时间而变质...

不敢想，也不要想
我用尽办法来麻醉自己，
可惜，
我做不到，
我失败了，
只因，
我爱他....
很爱他.....

thx

"Breaking Dawn" from Stephenie Meyer!!!

Hurray!!!!
finally,
i own d book, no borrow..is OWN o..wahaha
thx my love,
for giving me tis surprise..
din expect that he will buy for me..
in return of tis,
i treat him a pack of chicken rice for lunch..
see..
i treat him 'good' leh..keke

MUACKS..muacks..love u o!!!